Documented Explorations of the Chaotic Mind




The Month of March

March is finally here. 

After a brutal February, the month of March has graced us with its presence. And as always, I am here to report on what the theme of March is. January was the month of flexible persistence, February was the month of change. March is the month of


I could've guessed. I don't claim to be have any divine or ethereal powers, but my intuition is pretty strong. And for the past few days, through every lesson and experience I've had, I could feel the underlying theme of having to surrender brewing. I could feel the essence of the month as I noticed how things were unfolding. There was more understanding, more of a willingness to see things as they are, more of an ability to let go. So for anyone who cares to see how this month may show up for you, here is what I can tell you.

SURRENDER is a word that tends to trigger a definition of failure as if we are surrendering to the enemy and as if we have failed in something we believed in and have been striving for. Our definition of SURRENDER for the month is a giving up, a release of a stance, position, or belief that we have stubbornly held onto for way beyond its useful and practical life. It is time to let go of what should have been, could have been and what ought to be in the future. It is time to SURRENDER our anger, our resistance, our judgement and our need to know.

SURRENDER is an act of power that takes the reins away from the false personality and hands them over to essence.

SURRENDER is letting go of the attachment to being ‘right’ and the attachment to drama and suffering. SURRENDER is letting go of fear, giving up the need for control, and finally releasing emotional wounds, shame, guilt and resentments we have been carrying around for eons. Seeing the TRUTH is what will inspire us to finally give up our stubborn positions. It takes courage to surrender but once we see the truth of something that has been hidden, and we can face it with courage, surrender becomes the obvious choice. Surrender offers freedom. If you are feeling stuck in your life, there is probably something that needs to be surrendered

Stubbornness is an aspect we will be dealing with this month. You may see the truth of something that involves another, but they may be too stubborn to go along with your insight. On the other hand, you may find yourself stubbornly resisting a truth that is uncovered and revealed by another. Watch for bad behavior this month as projections go rampant and Stubbornness gets channeled through all the other forces: Self Deprecation, Arrogance, Martyrdom, Impatience, Greed and Self Destruction. Take responsibility for your own baggage and remember to be compassionate during this time of truth telling and surrender.

Resist the comments ‘I told you so’ and ‘It’s your fault’.

How do you know what to surrender? All you have to do is look at what is not working out for you and release whatever it is that is holding you in that pattern of struggle and despair. Find some humor in it, and better yet, make it into a game, a ritual or a discipline. Let’s talk about the TRUST subtheme this month. Once you surrender, you have stepped off the edge and into a space of TRUST. You have to have trust in order to successfully surrender. You have to trust that there is a bigger picture, that there is a greater order, that there is built in safety net, and that all will turn out just exactly as it should.  

All it takes is TRUTH, SURRENDER and TRUST.

Now this is a condensed version of a more complex astral reading I follow each month. But I felt it necessary to share out loud because I am feeling this very deeply. I am having to let go of my own agenda in order to see the compassion I must offer others. I must let go of being right in order to be true. That is very hard when you feel conviction in situations you feel you have been wronged or mistreated in. But at the end of the day, letting go enables more to come in. It isn't giving up, far from it. It's giving in. It's leaning into the reality around you and truly believing that everything will work out for you, because everything has always worked out for you.

This makes think of a quote from my beloved "Eat Pray Love" where Liz Gilbert explains her journey through prayer. 

"God dwells within you, as you."

We are the gods. We are the conduits of change and beauty. We get to decide how we are. Even if our outer circumstances encourage or even force us to have to focus on something we don't want to, we decide how we will do it. The best way to do this and have peace of mind, is to surrender.

My point is this: Action, aggression, movement and evolution are all part of the plan. But if you are unwilling and unable to surrender what you need to give up and purge, those energies will eat at you causing you to become angry, irritable, belligerent and self-destructive. We are on a very big wave. You can either catch the wave and get the ride of your life or get pummeled until you don’t know which way is up or down.