Documented Explorations of the Chaotic Mind

 

 

 

The Coin

I spoke up. 

And I am glad I did. I spoke my truth. I revealed myself. Sure, I may look crazy. I may push away or cause pressure, even if I don't want or intend to. But I did it. I said what I felt. And there's nothing wrong with that. It relieved me of the internal struggle that held me back from being authentic. I have spoken my truth and now it is time to move on. Even if things don't change the way you expect or hope they will, once you have spoken the truth, all you can do is accept you've done your part and let it go. Now I can let it go.

Which led me to understand why I use this tool so often. Whenever I need to make a big decision, one that I can ultimately depend on my emotions or logic to guide me through, I flip a coin. I know instantly if I am relieved or disappointed in my options. So today, I flipped the coin.

And it led me to where I am now. At peace. And content with who I am. Don't forsake the small tools in life that reveal the bigger truths. They may lead you to yourself and right now, I am happy with that.